WAS TOLD WHICH WAY TO GO!...

last night from a guy I dont even know, informed me about being in a relation with someone of another religion... its so tough ... I wish I had others to relate to.. but no one i know is in this issue.....

I love him, not sure how many ways I could say it...

But the "religion" issue is a touchy topic... I would never want to convert nor would I expect him

this guy tried to make it clear that it wouldnt work... and it seemed plausible at the moment... but as I finally took a breather and a moment to myself I looked in side my heart...

and said " God does have a plan for each and every single one of us beings on Earth... and my hand of cards were dealt this way because it is a hand I can play...God is a good dealer you know... It's us who need to learn to play those cards right...and the only thing we need to watch out for is those other opponents... and I wonder, God Loves me! He loves you, and you, and you!... and if so would He judge me for being with someone of another Religion? So why should I let someone judge me?... God would want all of us to accept one another... and to be honest, I believe his ultimate reason for this ONE world that we of many races, religions, genders, human and non human beings were placed on... was for ONE reason... we are all ONE signifant thing to God.. we are His children.. and he would want us all to play and laugh, and LOVE.. and live together here on this planet Earth... and then we can rejoice with him in haven once we finally understand this."


I also believe in the evil eye... after this guy said this, I had many bumps to face... although I got and recognized that the evil eye was around me and the most important thing to do was pray to God,

and I trust God with whatever card He deals me...
Things will even out soon enough.

Insecurities Creeping up Again

dear diary.

Just when i thought things were going well, I was starting to feel better..I was wrong.

I took things to the next level again, got over worried and created a problem worse than it already was....

unless Im being to hard on myself?

He was mad, how could I be over analyzing?... he was I know it... he just likes to pick at my scabs...he wants to make me feel like crap with out connotatively telling me ...

I guess Im going to take the advice I was given, You live and you learn....
but how long will this lesson go on for?

day 11 better :)

November 19.2009
This morning I had three cookies and a bottle of water
after class..
I had a turkey sandwitch with cheese
at 5:30 I had a chicken meal from swish chalet with fries and water

and now im drinkinking 2 second glass in a row of water

total of 4 waters

by the end of the night I will attempt to drink 3 more glasses

letchya know ;)

Bad night... Great day with mom!

November 19.2009

Last night had to be the worsstttt night of my lifeee!! it was never ending! I just wanted to sleep sooo badly!!!


It was all going to well at first... I finshed My good copy of my health essay at an ideal time, and was just waiting for my Bf to proof read it... He did soo in a matter of no time it was at least by 10:00pm that published and finished publishing it byt 10:30pm... considering that I have school in the morning at 9:30 am I was happy with the early finish!!

Unfortunately....... the work cited was just not sending back to me properly each time Kyle tried to send it!!! I was already started to feel fumes steam off my head!!! but I kept my cool for a few moments longer as I tried and tried to fix it.... For my essay a hard copy needs to be handed in as well as an electronic copy.... since I just could not align my citations properly kyle offered to send my essay with the citations electronically for the time being... but when he sent it he forgot to send the citations and it wont allow you to send another document! I was soo worried I thought i would have been accused of plagarism!! things couldnt get any worse, so i thought.. last night was a Slipper slope!.... after the fact that i sent my essay withought a citation I printed out the citation three times and it was not printing out properly to how i had it on the computer!.,,omg was i frusterated i was about to burst ... let me also inform you that it was now 2:30 am im the morning.... I let kyle sleep, and I kept trying... I finally got it aligned properlly and I attempted to try one more time printing it hoping it would print properl and what do you know.... I ran out of ink....


Now I just started cryin! I was so angry and fursterated but I think I cried because I was just way to sleepy!!!


anyways I didnt get to sleep till 5 and I woke up at 7 to go to school I had a longgg day ahead of me... thursdays Im at school from 9:30am to 4:30 pm it isnt too bad but when you're running on 2 hours of sleep... ya it is....


Thank Goodness my TA understood and allowed me to hand in the essay with out citations I just had to email her them citations.

anyways I left school ASAP after class (11:00 am ) and took a nap until 1:43pm... thenn things started turning around :)


I promised my mom we would spend quality time together when I get free time and since I did not go to school ... Mom and I spent the rest of the day together

we went to eat at Swiss Chalet and then went to the mall and bought my mommy a shall and looked for comfy shoes she could wear... that was hard and we didnt end up finding any shoes.

I also bought myself some 3 tops from forever 21 :) clothes are nice and very inexpensive! I recommend that place!

Right now, Im sitting with my mom and dad watching television.

Feeeling good :).

day 10- LOST the weight? no! lost the bet!

UNFORTUNATELY... I got fast food today! I hhave no excuses .... just regret :(

I had a turkey sandwitch at 12:30pm

3 pm had the devils foodd dun dun dunn...

and at 6:00 pm I had a salad and some three chicken wings


total of 3 glasses of water .... * I didnt even win the challenge of drinking a total of 5 watters!! lol boo


STILL DOING MY WEIGH IN on friday!!

day 9 :)

This morning I had three cookies... lol..... and milk....

then around 3:30 pm, I had a glass of orange juice

I did not eat until 5:30 pm, because of a busy day today! I had a chicken sub 12 inch whole wheat with light mayonese

a total of 3 glasses of water today



GOAL FOR TOMRROW IS A MINUM OF 5 GLASSES OF WATER.

late post for day 8

in the morning I had milk and 3 cookies lol the usual.....
gotta eat up those cookies so that I dont buy them again!


at around 4:30 I had a chicken sub from quiznos

At night I had rice and thats all

around 10:00 I had a bowl of palegranate seeds :)

total of 4 glasses of water